Tibacila -tiga babi kecil satu serigala-

hey, i'm back.. yuhuuu.. (heboh sendiri)

anyway, since i've become so desperate lately,, i've realized 1 thing..
buat apa ngerumitin masalah? kan cyapee dehhh (niru adel)..
just let it happen, instead of running away.. saya masi sadar akan smuanya kok..
tenang sajah! (emang sapa yg khawatir coba?) hohoho

okay, now i am saying.. whataver those things are, i do care,, but they won't influent me in a wrong way ever again!
i have great friends whose sympathy and affection have been really caring.. and they will always be..

mereka yang selalu ada buat nemenin gue ngakak gila"an ampe asthma gw kambuh plus pengen muntah ditambah kontraksi perut,, or even ada pas gue lage mellow" yellow kaya orang paling dodol sedunia..

mereka yang gak pernah ngejudge sgala hal yang udah terjadi, namun hanya berkata.. just let it be..
membiarkan kita semua berfikir tanpa menyesali, dan bahkan bersyukur..

mreka yang gak pernah mengucapkan katakata " i'll always be there" ,, but indeed, hati mereka bertindak begitu tanpa diminta..

mereka yang tetep ketawa.. walaupun yang diketawain itu hal" yang gak lucu, ato even freaking banget,, bukan untuk membuat itu jadi lucu, tapi untuk menghangatkan hati setiap orang yang dingin dan ga berbentuk.. dan tawa" itu,, sama skali gak artifisial.. dan itu udah cukup buat gue.. lebih dr cukup bahkan..

mereka yang bisa ngebuat gue berfikir.. it doesn't matter how long i've known them,, the only thing i know is we're now here.. and it just feels right..

mereka yang bisa membuat kita, terutama gue, ngerasa.. if loneliness is compeletely nothing.. because we have each other..

ga jelas perumpamaannya bner ato gak,, but that's how i feel.. hehehe..
seburuk apapun yang akan gue hadapi nantinya,, tinggal dateng, nangis2, pelukan rame2.. and done..
it's simply done..

jeje, lina, adel..
you guys know my words..
thanks..

someone is so being a bitch right now!

hohoho..
(baru dateng aja uda ketawa mesum)

it's been a long time ya.. sudah lama skaley saya tak berkunjung kesini..
it's just,, i have no courage to express what i feel, into something real.. i thought that to express sth, especially, feelings,, that was just so difficult,, i regularly share all my thoughts with all audiences out there, but i rarely do that with myself.. oh,, what kind of idiot i am.. such a coward..

and this blog is some kind of expression i need to deal with,, and the only reason is because,, i am NOW talking to myself.. and that's what real means.. real for me, btw..

ah, syulit syulit syulit.. (dangdut.com)
tolooonngg (mulai kaya AG,, cape de --> pake gaya)

well, i am not an introvert young lady,, but things i've been doing lately.. they made me felt like i so am.. who pretend not to be one.. but i'm telling you,, i'm not! ugh,, i hate all things which are related with introvert feelings.. why do they have to exist? it just makes everything so harsh.. makes me feel like nothing..
no hard feeling, i don't judge any of you..

but luckily, i have something good.. big elation actually.. hihihi..
xii sos iii presents TROTOS, The Reminiscenes of The OH-NO! samsons.. sbenernya,, bahasa cinkonya seh,, kenangan terindah haterz.. hahaha.. ga banget deh.. but thanks a bunch you guys..

1. buat jeje.. for becoming my beloved webster master.. buat semua penghiburan2nya disaat-saat sulit buat gue.. seperti : pas pelajaran AG, pelajaran AU, LE, HR,, dll kecuali jam kosong, jam istirahat, dan jam padus.. i owe you something.. hihihi.. sebenernya seh buat saran2nya yang simple.. tapi nenangin banget.. arigatooo.. je,, nyanyi2 lagu mellow yuuuukk.. trus cerita loe belum komplit lho,, boleh nyicil kok,, ^^
2. Buat adel, the sunsilk girl,, (going to be, in 3 weeks) huahaha,, cerita2 loe,, smuanya,, it inspired me,, a lot.. membuat gue felt grateful bgt karena ternyata,, we have each other dengan masalah oh-no samsons yang semakin merajalela.. huehehe.. tabah ya del,, u're gonna make it.. i know u will..
3. Linalianggembila.. hohoho.. loe tau untuk apa gue berterimakasih.. hihi (sok mesum dan rahasia)
4. Prisil,, dude, i dunno how to spell ur name corectly,, but that doesn't mean that u're forgotten, hun,,, haha
thanks karena sudah menganggap saya lucu, as if.. hahaha.. kamyu lutcyu deh.. kalu ulangan pinjem catetan yaaaaa.. hahaha.. thanks for introducing j-co donuts,, which i don't like them so bad, but it turns out,, they are not that bad.. hohoho
5. ricky.. --> uda masuk trotos belom ya? secara dia suka samsons.. hahaha.. udalah gue sebutin aja,, kalo ga tar dia sensi.. hihihi..

u guys change my days.. hohoho...

--buat abet juga,, gue ga tau kata apa lagi selaen trimakasih.. (anjiiirrrr).. hahaha.. u know my words, man..
--buat mel,, my best girlfriend ever.. thanks for being there with me within my hardest day,, oh my so twin sister..
--ka' aisha.. huehehe.. kangen bgt de.. td belum puas ngbrolnya.. thanks for the pathetic sonata that u've chosen to give me.. i'm going to play it, beautifully,, as pathetic as i can cos that song describes myself, esp. right now.. yeah, you are so right.. it fits me, and i'll fit it..

uda kaya acara oscar aja gue, thanks2 gajelas.. hehehe.. maav ya, kalo ada nama yg tak disebutkan..
hihi,, cape ngetiknya.. btw,, saya cuma ingin bersyukur atas apa yang ada diskeliling saya skarang.. whether it's wrong or right..

love you all..
including you.. oh, so slutty bitch.. i'm trying to deal with you..

hatchi

so damn freakin cold..
and i feel like a fool..


unconscious mind i need to dig in,,
an unlocked box i need to open..


*terdengar suara backsound dari kejauhan*

i need to escape..
i just wanna go home..
but i don't even know where my home is..

(nasib anak cantik)

Huahhh,,,
sayah sedang berada di melbourne skarang...
dingiiinn.. i need a BIG hug, immediately.. yeah.. (mesum)

baru kali ini tau rasanya tinggal di dorm..
serem seh sendirian,, tp lama2 enak juga,, ohohoho..
jadi berasa kaya harry potter (halah.com)

br sadar,, orang bule tuh pada baik2 ya (kampungan mode : on)
ramah bgt,, td aja gw dijemput sama cewe african, Jessie.. dan dia baik bgt,,
heran aja org2 dsono kok baik ya sama strangers? tp bgs lah,,
marilah kita menggalang perdamaian dunia.. (otak mulai konslet gara2 kedinginan)

see u,, hihiy

it's been a while

sumpah bingung mau ngepost apa..


btw,,
minta maav untuk anak2 sos3 karena saya tak bisa ikud waktu kmarin..
serius, keadaannya cukup sulith..
honto ni, gomenasai..
hihiy..


btw, kasian beckham..
jangan mennagis ya re.. sabar.. ^^..
tp gw suka portugal nih,, tau2 rasanya ada chemistrynya gtu.. (halah)
hohoho.com


ehm,, tgl 7 saya brangkat ke ausi..
mid year skul di trinity college.. hihiy..
doakan ya.. (minta restu)
bolos skolah 1 minggu..


lots of pray,,
lately..
always..

Pretending

Akhir2 ini gue jadi sering dengerin lagu rossa..
good singer, good voice, good interpretation..

Dan entah kenapa, tiba2 gue terpekur dengan beberapa baris lirik dari salah satu barisan lagunya..

" Serasa seumur hidupku slalu denganmu"
"Kemana perginya masa indah itu? Tuhan tolong kembalikan kisahku.."
"Cintai dan sakiti hatiku, kalau itu dapat membawamu kembali ke pelukanku lagi, aku rela memberi s'galanya untukmu"

Well, the point is.. seorang Rossa mampu menyadari apa yang dia rasakan.. and i just feel,, how could it be that easy? hm,, mungkin bukan rossanya ya,, nothing but the song-maker lah ya.. huehehe...

The truth is, those words are silly,, she's asking for a heartache.. huahahaha..
silly yet sweet,,
karena, tidak banyak orang yang bisa sejujur itu..


Need a break from pretending..

Things are not always like you've always imagined..
They are better..
(Amanda bynes -What a girl wants)

derita anak cantik (sok dramatisir gila"an)

huahhh...

knapa yah akhir2 ni saya agak mengalami penurunan minat dalam blogging?
yah, only heaven knows.. (gak nyambung)

anyway,,
tadi akhirnya graduation anak2 klas 3 slese juga..
setelah nyanyi tanah aer yg ga jelas diulang brapa kali slama pemberian medali.. (bibir uda lecet2 dengan tenggorokan kejepit di tengah nada F2 yang aduhai bagi seorang alto seperti saya ini) --> hiperbola.co.id

salut buat charles for his beautiful music.. he made such a good atmosphere.. with open-hearted expression and it really inspired with those great musicianship..

salut juga buat Gied yang idol wanna-be bangetttt.. trus Ton2 yang nyanyi dengan penuh penghayatan dan muka pengen nangis (hihi)..

it was awesome though,,
selamat ya...

Buat ibu Tia,, rasanya pas mikir.. klo suatu waktu gw ke ruang BK, and i see the first place of that room and (sadly) don't see u right there,, it just feel like.. God, i will be missing you, A LOT!!
yEAH, Fact doesn't seem good enough, but it's good enough to KNOW that you already knew that fact..

Fact (untuk situasi gw skrg) : pertemuan berbanding lurus dengan perpisahan..
gyagya.co.id..

just a thought,,
Kmaren, gw ngrasa lega bgt,,



abis boker.co.uk..
gyagya..



gak deh,, hihi (ketawa mesum tante girang)
Mengikuti kata2 Bunda mARIA
"Terjadilah padaku, menurut kehendakMU"
well, that point really made my day..
and teached me how to accept the things which (maybe) i did nothing to make it better..
maybe yah,, huohohoho..

Ya Tuhan, Bimbinglah anakMu yang cantik ini dalam Kata2, pikiran, dan perbuatannya..
Aminnnn..


c ya..
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